Ok so today is a good and bad day. It didn't snow over night, but It snowed this morning. It was sticking and I was getting so excited. This is our mountains at around 11:30. Well about 30 minutes ago the sun came out and now we have blue skies. What's up with that. I don't like being teased. lol Here is the pity me part. The closer we get to Christmas the harder it's getting for me. I do think I'm dealing with it pretty good, but maybe I haven't let it sink in. I don't know. I took some poinsettia's to her grave so that she could have some Christmas. I still can't talk to her. My oldest, Celeste, still hasn't gone out to visit her. She said she's not ready. I wonder if her taking her time is better than me trying to rush to get over it. On Monday I'm going over to my dad's for our Christmas together. It's going to be so hard to see grandpa there without her. I'm going to miss sitting in the kitchen and chatting with her and Liz. The cute little things she use to give me. She always went to Costco or Target and got the cutest things that held cookies or candy. I always use them as decorations the years after. I guess I keep wondering how long it's going to hurt this bad. I'm sure it'll be a long time though. Thanks for listening (or reading) to me vent.