Almost there!

OK so I made it past Christmas. It was hard, but i did it. Here I am with my grandpa and daddy. I've had this whole week off and it has felt like one long weekend. We still haven't gone sledding, because every time we make plans we wake up and it looks like a storm is coming in. So New Years Day is our next attempt. Ice skating didn't happen either, but that would be the fault of the girls. I've told them to get a reward they have to be good and stop fighting. Well I guess they just can't help themselves. Hopefully on an upcoming weekend. I have figured out though that I love working. I mean I always knew I loved my job, but I need it to keep sane. OK so one more day until we all get to start a new year. It's a time to rethink your life, what you've been through, want to change or keep the same. I've been doing a lot of soul searching since grandma passed. She has even come to me in my dreams (which is huge for me because I never dream or remember them.) So it means a lot that I figure out exactly what is working for me and what is not.

1. of course there is always the same thing on top of every one's list. Lose Weight. I want to go to my yoga class every single Tuesday. I know I can do it too, because I did it through the hole summer. Start doing my crunches again. I use to teach them when I worked at Curves so I have no excuse for that one. Also to continue working on what I eat. I have cut beef out of my diet, no soda. Now I need to cut chocolate out completely and continue to eat my tuna sandwiches.

2. I need do to more for me. I don't mean buying things either. I have every other weekend without my girls and I need to go out and do things. Meet new people, have some fun, try new things.

3. Re evaluate the relationships in my life. Define why I have someone in my life and if its healthy to keep them there. To move on from the "relationship" I've been in for the past year. It's not going anywhere, no matter how much I like him. I really do want to be friends with him, we are great together and are both good people, but the timing is not right for him and I can't keep my heart out there anymore. It's been hurt so many times especially the past 3 years. I don't want to rebuild the brick wall either.

4. Determine what I need to do to better the lives of my 3 beautiful and fun spirited girls. They don't have a bad life by any means, but how can I make things easier for them. Like Caitlyn and all her learning problems. I want them to feel like they can do anything and no matter what mom will always be there to back them up or help them get through it. I need to start this before the become back talking teenagers.

5. Spend as much time with my family as I can. We are only on Earth for a short while and we need to make sure that we tell everyone that we love them and also show them. Words are easy to say and can be faked, but to show someone is to truly feel it. It will let them know that you actually mean it. They will always remember that you drove that extra 45 mins to go see them or stopped by just because. My family is the most important thing in my life and I want to love them and be loved by them as much as possible.

6. I think my final thing is to try and stay healthy. I have a Dr's appointment tomorrow for possible high blood pressure. In my opinion 30 in too young to have to go through that. I need to figure out what I need to do to keep my life health and calm. I would like to get off most of the meds I'm on and just be healthy.

Ok so today is a good and bad day. It didn't snow over night, but It snowed this morning. It was sticking and I was getting so excited. This is our mountains at around 11:30. Well about 30 minutes ago the sun came out and now we have blue skies. What's up with that. I don't like being teased. lol Here is the pity me part. The closer we get to Christmas the harder it's getting for me. I do think I'm dealing with it pretty good, but maybe I haven't let it sink in. I don't know. I took some poinsettia's to her grave so that she could have some Christmas. I still can't talk to her. My oldest, Celeste, still hasn't gone out to visit her. She said she's not ready. I wonder if her taking her time is better than me trying to rush to get over it. On Monday I'm going over to my dad's for our Christmas together. It's going to be so hard to see grandpa there without her. I'm going to miss sitting in the kitchen and chatting with her and Liz. The cute little things she use to give me. She always went to Costco or Target and got the cutest things that held cookies or candy. I always use them as decorations the years after. I guess I keep wondering how long it's going to hurt this bad. I'm sure it'll be a long time though. Thanks for listening (or reading) to me vent.

Santa Train

On Saturday, Caitlyn, Makayla and I met Angie and Chloe in Carson to ride the Santa Train. It was freezing cold outside, but the girls were thrilled. When we were on the train Santa came through and gave everyone a candy cane. Friday night Caitlyn had her recital. She did perfect. I am so proud of her. She didn't make one mistake. On the way there she kept telling me how nervous she was. I can't believe they are growing up. I got all my shopping done and just about everything wrapped. Friday is my work gift exchange and Celeste's party at school. I'm going to go on my lunch break. Christmas eve my mom is coming over and then the girls and I are going to my dad's for dinner. While I'm off work, Rob's mom is coming to stay with us over night. We are also going sledding with Chloe and Angie the day after Christmas and ice skating that same week. I've got to keep myself busy this holiday if I want to make it through in one piece. I can't believe it's almost a new year. Time to make some changes. I'm hoping for a happy year. God knows I need one. Well I'm also hoping for some more snow. We are suppose to get lots tonight, but I've heard that before. Well I guess I'll find out in about 9 hours.

O Christmas Tree

I finally got a new tree. Target was having a 30% off sale. This was the nicest one that was under $200. I like colored lights on my tree, but thought why not. Now that it's up and decorated it looks so pretty. I am very happy with it. I let the girls do all the decorating this year. I only helped by putting some of the ornaments up higher. I think they were glad that I left it to them. I can't believe how fast this month is going. Today I want to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET CHLOE! My little niece is now 4 years old. Talk about time flying. I get to see her on Saturday. There is a train in Carson that is going to give the kids rides and have Santa there, so we will probably meet her there. Today Angie took off of work and they went to Chuck E Cheese and build a bear. Tomorrow is Caitlyn's recital. I am so excited. I will definitely be posting a picture. Cross your fingers for her.

Winter Wonderland

Wow I sure got what I wanted. It snowed all day Friday through Saturday evening. It's funny how things work out. I wanted snow and got it, but because of the snow George couldn't come hang out. Be careful what you wish for huh. lol When I was driving through town on Saturday I noticed that one of the local businesses had someone in their front area making something out of snow. Today I went and took a picture of it. He built it in the shadow and it's been so darn cold it isn't going to be melting for awhile. Today's high is suppose to be 32. I know that we are warm compared to some places, but just a week ago it was in the 70's. It's such a drastic change. On this Friday Caitlyn has her first piano recital. I'm so excited. This last weekend I went Christmas shopping. I'm 95% done. I got my Christmas bonus, so that helps a lot. On Christmas eve my mom is going to come over and then that evening my girls and I are going to my dads. Thursday my niece, Chloe turns 4! I can't believe how big she is getting. I might get to see her tomorrow. Angie called and asked and I told her no way I don't want to see her. And Angie said she was going to tell Chloe that her Auntie doesn't like her anymore. hehe I told her that Chloe won't believe her. In 2 weeks it'll be Christmas and I'll be on my vacation. We aren't going anywhere. I'm going to take the girls sledding and ice skating and we are going to just hang out. Some much needed mother/daughters time with fun and no fighting. As the holiday gets closer I keep thinking about grandma. It's so weird to me to think that she won't be at the get together. It's like sometimes I think she's still here. I bought some poinsettias to put at the grave. She loved Christmas so I thought it would be nice to bring her a little of the holiday. My aunt and her girlfriend are coming for Christmas to help keep grandpas mind occupied. He told me that he was glad, because it will help. He's keeping busy, but he said he has his good and bad days. Just like anyone else I suppose. I'm very proud of him. He's doing much better than we all thought he would. I guess I should have known better. He's a retired military man with a lot of faith in God.

Let it snow, Let it snow!

Well it looks like I got my wish! It snowed last night. Not as much as I wanted, but I'll take it. It looks so pretty out. Now it just needs to keep doing it. So today Rob is getting his new iphone. I can't wait to play with it. So this picture was taken in March of 2006. It is a real snowflake from 1979. It was preserved with superglue. I found this article on how to do it. So of course the snow goddess that I am, I'm going to have to try it. Let me know if you want a link to try it also.

I'm wishing for a white winter!

No this is not a picture of Gardnerville, just what I want it to look like. I can't believe that it's December 4th and it still is dry as a bone. They said on the radio this morning that this is the driest winter since 1947. It's finally cloudy today, but still nothing. We are even praying for rain. Not being too picky. I'm hoping that we at least get some before Christmas. I took the week of Christmas off of work. I always take time off during the summer and we go to the beach and do summer stuff. I thought that it would be nice if did some winter fun together. If we go sledding in the dirt we'll just hit a bunch of rocks. lol I know I'm complaining, but oh well. So anyways Caitlyn has her first piano recital on December 14th. I'm excited. Things are finally starting to calm down. I started my Christmas cards yesterday and now have to decorated the house.