Time to move forward

First of all I want to thank everyone for all their wishes, prayers, and kind words. The funeral was very nice. Grandma did plan out the scriptures and songs. I think she would be very happy. 2 of my cousins, Uncle Harry and I all got up and said something. It was very hard, but I felt that I needed to say my goodbyes and let everyone know how much she meant to me. They did end up having an open casket, but not for me. I would rather remember all the good times and that the last time I saw her she told me she would be seeing me a lot and that she loves me. My sweet Makayla wrote her a letter and drew her a picture then put it in the casket with her. I am so proud of her for that. It was a long hard day, but we made it through. Grandpa is doing as well as one can expect. My aunts went home today so he is finally alone. We are going to have Thanksgiving with him so he doesn't have to be lonely. I went to go visit her yesterday, but it was too soon. I couldn't talk to her yet. I did tell the girls that any time they want to see her we would go. As for Thanksgiving, I was suppose to be at Disneyland, but with all of this and some other things it is just not a good time. I am so bummed. I was looking forward to going. The girls kind of blew it though. I used Disneyland as a bribe (you might say) that if they were bad we would cancel the trip. Well I guess the twins just couldn't help themselves. I feel bad for Celeste because she gets to miss out on things because the twins just can't behave. I think we are going to try and go to the San Francisco Zoo at the beginning of next year to make up for missing Disneyland. It won't be the same, but the girls love animals and Celeste wants to be a zoologist. There is also a science museum there so that could be fun too. Well I guess I should get back to work.

She has moved on

Well sad news, Grandma passed away on Tuesday night. I'm pretty sure she went to sleep and that was it. My dad called me first thing Wednesday morning. Yesterday I spent the day with my dad, sister, grandpa, and 2 aunts. I was glad that I got to spend time with them before the rest of the family comes. I love my family, but there are a lot of us and it was easier to visit. Tomorrow is the funeral and everyone is coming in tonight. I'm glad that she finally let go. I know that my dad told her on Tuesday that it was ok, because we would take care of grandpa. It's hard to lose her, but I know that she wants all of us to go on with our lives. She wants all of us to be happy. She is looking down from heaven and watching over all of us. I am going to miss her so much!

MY HERO

My hero is a woman who has lived a very full life. Someone who didn't marry until she was 35 years old, but found her sole mate. She raised 3 kids and let me tell you her son was a terror. :) She is a military wife who moved all over and had to take care of her children alone when her husband was out to sea. Her parents died when she was young so had to grow up faster than normal. Has the strongest faith in God I have ever seen. I do believe it is because of that that she has made it through everything. She has eight grand children and 8 great grandchildren. She has so much love in her life. She has always believed in me. Complements me on things I do, such as decorating my home, making birthday cakes, the costumes I sew, and raising my own children. To have a woman like her tell me that I am a good mom is the best complement I could ever receive. Being married to the same man for 56 years is such an accomplishment to me. And still be madly in love after 56 years. I love the fact that she married a man 11 years younger and back in those days that was unusual. My whole life she has made me feel so special. The fact that I am going to lose her is very sad and hard on me, but to know that she believes that where she is going makes her happy. I'm also glad that my girls got to know her so well. Not many people get to know their great grandparents. I just hope she knows how much I love her and what she means to me. Great people like her don't come around very often. When she goes we are going to lose a great person.

Random thoughts...

*Why is it that as moms we insist on buying our kids too much for Christmas? Every year I sit down to make sure that I have an even amount for the girls and I swear the piles get bigger and bigger.

*This year I have learned that I can make it on my own. As long as I have my girls, I have the strength and love to make it through.

*I also learned that I can fall again. I met a great guy, who makes me happy when we are together. It's just too bad that we can't be a couple. I'm just happy that he comes to visit after he moved. Maybe in the future we will both be ready, but as long as we are still in each others lives I'm happy.

*I found out that you can still be close with you ex-husband. We do still fight like we are still married sometimes, but when it comes down to it we are great friends.

*I have realized that no matter what you are going through your family will always be there for you. They may annoy you, but they back you up and help you out no questions asked.

*It's important to like where you work. You spend most of your awake time at your job, you should enjoy your job and fellow employees. I love my job!

*Cell phones. It's funny, I love my phone. Always texting someone, but boy does it make me mad when customers come into the bank talking on the phone and can't get off long enough to tell you what they want done with their money. Maybe I should accidentally deposit it into my own account. hehe

Well I guess that's enough rambling for now.

Nothing much here!

Well here's to another day. I took Toby to get his shots on Saturday and the poor thing hasn't been feeling good. Last night was the first night I didn't have to get up in the middle of the night to clean him up. It's funny, my twins are 8 and I thought I was done with the baby stuff. hehe. Rob had to fly out on Sunday to Vegas for the week, so I had the girls this weekend. It's not his fault he had to for work, but boy do I feel like I have the girls all the time lately. God knows I love them, but I also enjoy my little breaks I get. It gives me time to get my nails done or go grocery shopping without all the "help". But it actually worked out because this up coming weekend is a 3 day weekend. I'm having a Body Shop party on the 13th so I have an extra day to clean up. Well grandma is still fighting. My dad said that she is drinking Gatorade now. Which is what I kept telling them to give her. She goes through stages where she won't drink anything and I figure this way she gets something good in her when she does. My bank is having a photo contest. They are fixing up our website and on the locations link they are going to put a picture of each branch. Well each branch gets to submit as many pictures as they want and the winner of each branch gets a $25 gift card. The cool part is that the girls I work with call me the photographer so I don't have any competition. It will also be cool that the picture on the website will be one that I took.

I'm ready for my close up!

I thought I'd share some close ups so you can see their faces!

Trick or Treat!

So here are the costumes! The best part of Halloween for me is putting the girls in their costumes and doing their hair and make-up. I think this year the costumes turned out really good with the colors and personalities of the girls. Celeste looks like she is from Norway! I can't believe how well the belly dancer outfit suited Makayla. And Caitlyn's was the most fun for me only because I really got to play with her hair and makeup. Last night we went to the safe street that our town has for the kids. It's such a great thing they do for the community. Different businesses volunteer to have a spot and hand out "safe" candy to the kids. It only costs $2 per kid, which goes toward next year. Each kid also gets a raffle ticket to possibly win a big prize. Well when we were done I told my girlfriend that for 5 years we've never won and right as I said that we found out we had a winning ticket! Can you believe it. The girls won a brand new bike. I was so excited for them. Can you just imagine going tick or treating and getting a bike. What a great treat. Now to just figure out how 1 bike and 3 girls evens out. They already have bikes, but now that there's a new one they are all going to want it. I was teasing them last night telling them that this is there Christmas present and it's all they are getting. Of course they didn't believe me.